SHOULD HAVE BEEN THEN

If it should have been then
I could have done a lot of things
I just don't know which is which
But I know only the first
I'd say I love you very much
and I'd never doubt as much.

Now, things are quite different
For all of these, my heart laments
Sometimes I crave for that time with you
Although all the while, I am in his arms
Sometimes I secretly plead for your truth
Even though I am deeply caring for the other
Sometimes I search for your presence
In the arms of my lover.

These circumstances are consequences
I should have treasured you
I should have taken cared of you,
I could only blame myself.
If a thousand prayers
could bring you back to me,
I would pray a million
Just to spend this lifetime with you.


- October 18, 1997 6:15 p.m. -